By Stef Nunez
Every day is harsh
Every night is a trial
I stay awake and awake and await
messages from old reliables
scrolling feverishly
smoking until I can function
again
Why can’t I find the thing that winds my ticker
How did it break into so many pieces
My heart is still beating
so I know I’m alive
but am I here
Am I really here
Stef Nunez is the editor in chief of Sage Cigarettes Magazine.